Wednesday 5 February 2014

2 Poems by Mel Waldman


I search for Aleph,
the holy point where all points
meet in unity.

Aleph is oneness,
the mystical point of the
sacred universe.

The holy Aleph
is multiplicity too,
1 and 1000

and numberless in
the incomprehensible
universe of G-d.

The first letter of
the Hebrew alphabet, it
is the first letter

of some of G-d’s names,
and the sacred symbol that
G-d is one.  It points

to Hashem.  Without
making a sound, it moves us
closer to our G-d,

toward the Ein Sof, the
Without End, the Ultimate
Nothingness, the Void

from which all life comes.


The little man, shriveled up and still,
lay in the wooden coffin, his gold
tooth glittering in the vast silence.

Once a furious sphere of dark energy
that whirled and swirled around me,
and inside my head, forever inside,
he was Father, a wolf that devoured
my spirit, my unforgiving cannibalistic
Father whom I loved and loathed.

He lay in the wooden coffin, his dark
brown eyes vacant and far away.  I
bent over the coffin and whispered,
“Fire and ice, ice and fire.”

Inside my brain, a boiling, seething
heat overflowed, a waterfall of fire
cascading down and flooding my
psyche.  Yet a cold chill replaced
the heat.

I can’t recall how long my emotions
were wrapped in ice.  I took a deep
breath that spanned decades of despair,
exhaled my rage, and spoke through
the eerie silence to his empty dark
brown eyes.

I whispered, “Father, I forgive you!”


Dr. Mel Waldman, a psychologist, is also a poet, writer, and artist. His stories have appeared in dozens of magazines including HARDBOILED DETECTIVE, ESPIONAGE, THE SAINT, and AUDIENCE. He is a past winner of the literary GRADIVA AWARD in Psychoanalysis and was nominated for a PUSHCART PRIZE in literature.  He is the author of 10 books. I AM A JEW, his most recent book published by World Audience Publishers, is a collection of essays, memoir, short stories, poems, and plays about his exploration of his Jewish identity.   He is currently working on a novel inspired by Freud’s case studies.  His email address is

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